Friend Gone Sour
the wind seemingly caressing ur hair, the leaves dance a to a symphony of color and scents. ur dress moves to the rythm of nature, my love for u everlonging. like the billowing clouds releasing their fury, i give u all ive got. tills thes suns rays no longer shine, from that undulating sphere of fire. like that sun u are the center of my world, i live off of u u fuel me for my day. dont leave me behind in the dust of life, i need u to survive ur my heart.
The Pain of Love
you told me u understood and i believed, this is something i could not have conceived. i thought you could love me i thought u could care, but you frown look away and say life isnt fair. you walk away never to look back, everyone always said people skills is what i lack. like a boxer the punches never retreat, all i can remember is how your touch was so sweet. so gentle so cunning so witty u were, you sit in my head like a spiny 'ol burr. a faint picture of you lingers in my mind, like a watermelon all that is left is the rind.
Written in Anguish
i saw u standing there so qiuet and pronounced, yet i have never seen someone so denounced. the days grow longer the sun never sets, tossing and turning im entangled in ur nets. of confusion and anger and cruelty too, what is this darkness this muck this deadly brew. slopping and slurping it envelopes my eyes, gasping and coughing no one hears my crys. to pull to drag me clear of this haze, i flutter and slide down through the maze. i want a way out a trap door a clue, for why my existence is so hard to construe. hand me the gun place it against my head, pull the trigger now im dead. u say ull cry but ull forget in a week, ull say kuni whos that fucking geek. dont deny it u know its true, so u wanna be the first to piss on my ashes join the queue.
An Urge to Live
i want to fly, i want to get away above it all. i dont wanna come down, leave me up there. to die to fly, will u come with me. i want someone to love to hold me, ill be scared in the sky so very high. above it all never shall we fall, to the ground we will not come. come now with me, the futures done. its simple take my hand, leave the land take to the clouds. look around ull say what u would miss, so bright so colorful tranquil its bliss. remove the shrouds that dull ur senses, blocking the truth withdraw ur defenses.
Curing Concerto
like glistening cascading droplets of rain, u wash away my sadness and vain. hammer to string and string to sound, it makes me feel as though im found. the notes are flowing my mind is released, the chances of us meeting are ever increased. the tempo grows faster ur fingers fly, to the vigorous yet gentle lullaby. both hands in sync to the serenade, my mind is twirling watch me fade. ur music grasps me by the wrists, someitimes i wonder if love realy exists. but i take one look at u and my heart is put to rest, the thought of u makes me no longer depressed. ur likeness is one of unimaginable dreams, to be with u i would do the extremes. i would climb a mountain i would soar the skies, swim the oceans till my demise. the thought of us together at last, may be a thing of the past. but i wont give in to the undaunting stress, for i would do anything for ur caress. u and me finally together, our relationship as tough as leather. flowers in hand freshly picked, a common scene so easy to depict.
Truth of Life
i sit here with a blank stare on my face, falling behind i cant keep the pace. watch me as i stumble and fall, ill make it even if i have to crawl. the effort i make to control my life, has brought about too much strife. so i turn the cheeck and start anew, my newfound emptiness hard to construe. the people i know all left behind, our distant memories still entwined. as i unpack my bags from years of stress, i look in the mirror and start to confess. how my life has been wasted on miniscule things, like i was a puppet on some marionet strings. controlled my some strange alien force, powered by such deep remorse. built up inside and stored away, only to explode on some soiree. i sit myself down and begin to speak, but i have to stop im becoming to weak. my knees are quivering and my arms do shake, this is something i wish not partake. but it has to be done one way or the other, so u start to blame it on your mother. the way she deprived you of much needed care, setting up for years of dispair. now she claims shes sorry but i cant believe, against me anothe way to deceive. now dont even mention the dad, the one i wish i never had. hed yell and rant like the end was abound, my own damned house felt like a prison compound. is that any way to raise a child, no wonder i never grew beguiled. so later in life it was no surprise, that this young lad wishes for his demise. from this dirty place they call home, and let his spirit out free to roam. the tragic ending brings our story to a close, that shows how you're so imature and marose. to let it come down to this in the end, come on he was ur bestest friend.
Girl of Dreams
weve met together on a plain of fiction, our convos so deep u became an addiction. yet we had our flaws and our afflictions, that brought about our final convictions. so perfectly sound it seemed at first, yet our friendship was silently cursed. so misunderstood and about to burst, everything took a turn for the worst. we held on tight for a bumpy ride, spent those nights teary eyed. but let our conscious be our guide, never hiding the feelings inside. my feelings blurred by memories of pain, so hard to control i couldnt constrain. to understand the complexity i need be arcane, the emotions i have are nowhere near mundane. too confused on which path to take, so afraid id make a mistake. i cant sleep at night i toss and ache, and once i do i fear to wake. such decisions based on talk alone, dare i venture into the unknown. sinking in water like a stone, never able to condone. for which way i care is uncertain to me, could i pass up this opportunity. and dare to break our unity, to that i must disagree. so i tell myself to let you go, even tho u set my life aglow. ur arrival int my world was apropos, when making me happy u were a pro. i consider this chance one in a 'mill, my urge to love i need fulfill. these ideas i have i must instill, as we fight this battle all uphill. and the conclusions we make will always last, as we remember the events of our past. and by others our feelings are harassed, and our need to live is still unsurpassed. questions left unanswered and layed astrew, these sensations i have i must pursue. with an explenation long overdue, the numbness i have is starting to imbue. thus we find ourselves at the end of the line, and its seem so much easier to define. the cause of our mental entwine, realizing how purely devine.
This is How I Feel
i wish u knew the way i feel, ur racing thru my mind night and day. my thoughts for u so hard to conceal, i hope our relationship will never decay. we waste our time argueing and fighting, when we should be laughing instead. the times we might have could be so exciting, as i lay next to u in my bed. at night i dream of holding u close, and whispering "i love u" in ur ear. as we take our repose under the stars, and let all our troubles disappear. our time together has been not long, but thats not reason to get us down. i like ya alot dont get me wrong, so cheer up and get rid of that frown. the day ull leave is much too near, ill count the time by the tears i shed. as u travel the globe for ur teen career, and i long for ur touch instead. but no need to worry, ull always return. and no need to hurry, for u ill still yearn. our feelings confusing in many ways, the key to unlock them is hidden within. the way u talk sets my heart ablaze, to explain how i feel i dont know where to begin.